1st Day - Finding my Feet.

Well i said i was bored of living in small towns, so typically i went for the extreme opposite and moved to london! Mwaha!
Oh but this feels so good already. Im in my small corner of the city and all around me is opportunity and experience just waiting to happen.
I was walking around earlier on and i experienced that kinda-annoying-but-not-really feeling that you get when you don't know the area you're in at all so you walk and walk and walk...and then you turn a corner and realise you've just walked in a square. That happened to me a couple of times, but the really weird thing is that i seemed to suddenly develop a sense of direction, as although obviously i got lost (how could i not when i dont know the area?) it was a deliberate kind of lost and i saw buildings and shops that worked really well as landmarks, and i stayed close to two main streets so i could always find my way back to them. I was shocked at the fact that when i decided to go home i found the flat with very little difficulty! I did however buy myself a street map during my explore, just in case. But i havent used it yet!

It was a rather tentative explore today, but im ok with that. It was...if i say terrifying i dont mean that exactly i just like using that word...but it was a very weird feeling just walking around with no end destination or clue as to where i was or where i was going. And it was only scary when i first left the flat and set off, once i got going all i was thinking was whether to go left or right!
Ended up being fun though, i found some cool shops and one of my favourite roads in london, Portobello Road! Yay! According to a friend of mine the market is on tomorrow which i am definately going to.

Another strange thing im experiencing (at this point just about everything is strange to me) is how my sense of time has altered. I have spent months thinking, talking, reading, planning, saving, all for this move, and so my focus has always been on the future. Now im here and it's like i've caught up with the future and time seems to have slowed right down. I got here yesterday afternoon and it feels like ive been here at least two or three days.

I love my flat. It's not decorated how i particuarly like (it's very floral) but it feels really cosy. It's really warm as well which im very thankful for. My house in St.Ives was freezing, this is much warmer, and the heatings easy to control too which helps. And i have a double bed! For the first time ever! Must admit i was hoping i would have. Last night i had the best nights sleep ever, and i could stretch out (in all directions!) and not fall out! My feet never stuck out at all, they stayed toasty warm all night :-)

I applied for a job today too. It's very useful having the net here, i can combine net job hunting with the physical type. So online i applied for a stage crew job at the Gate Theatre, within walking distance of my flat. Fingers crossed there.

Once i get my voice back that will help with the job hunt i feel. I miss my voice.

At the moment at least im having fun being on my own. I know the loneliness will probably arrive sooner or later, and no doubt ill put a post on here about it when it does, but for the mo im enjoying the absolute freedom of being able to do what i like when i like. Ive been in touch with people back home a lot, i think cause i need that link to that part of my life to make this easier, to remind myself that everyone didn't just disappear when i left, they are all still there.

So my mood at the moment is optimistic, hopeful and excited. :-)

xxx